What I am

What am I?

If I leave no trail-
if my existence dwindles…

Not for me to decide,
or you.
Or him, or her
or them.

I am human-

Grass between toes

Fire consuming heart

Water racing in veins

Air inflating lungs

Life is in me.

ink

I don’t write poetry-

My heart pumps ink through my veins and it bleeds out of my fingers to fill an empty page.

burden

when I met you
I thought you were nice enough
we could help each other out
a casual friendship
such as you’d have
with your favourite barista

but since having the unfortunate opportunity
to get to know you better
I realise that
you’re just fucking annoying

so misguided is your over-confidence
I loathe every single second
that I have to bestow pleasantries upon you

with every smile on my face
comes a vibrant thought of disgust
though you’re too thick to realise it

oh, sorry.
I don’t mean to be a bitch, it’s just

Unavoidable dislike leaves such a bitter taste.

scarlet

Exuberant red painted on bare legs
blown away by wind
and unveiled into monstrous petticoat.
Heart protected in chest
held sternly by a corset
classiness offset by dirtied undershirt.

Walk across the road and
grab that handsome man,
make him mine.
Now he’s yours?
Oh, right.
Tomorrow he will be for someone else,
or not even be at all.
Good. Now cut.

Sit,
here’s
some
food.
Not hungry?
Eat more.
Drink more water.

Stop,
let’s touch up this
and that.
Her too fine hair
unhinged by a rapid breeze.
Again.

Stand still, you are a
benumbed rag doll
waiting for perfection
to be stitched
externally into her body.

Might be a while,
may as well go mingle
with the other dolls
where laughs lurk in stranger’s faces.

How long has it been?
Ten, twelve hours?
That will be all for the day.
See you again,
maybe,
someday.

If you’re lucky.

attention please

add spice to substantiate mediocrity
garnering attention by
waving my hands around
and sitting on your lap
making a spectacle of myself
insinuating that you are not
paying me undivided heed

wanting to be your addiction

so that you might
find
not an annoying creature
to dissuade you from your
mindless games
but rather
a reachable unreachable
the kind that makes your heart
race faster faster faster

needing me like crimson water

once perhaps, but no longer
now
really
I just need you
to immerse yourself in me
to lay the stones in front of my feet
so that I might know where to step

blindfolding myself

tied delicately
wrapped like tinted goggles
woven into my hair
and I cling to you dramatically

humming satisfaction

without your help
I’d just sit here blind
stay still
and die without even knowing it